Spirituality is the unending hunger for finding who we really and truly are.
One day some of us realise that we’ve been believing a lie. A lie constructed by the thoughts of who we are, the ideas of who others think we are, the way we want to portray ourselves. The way society wants us to be, etc… We’ve been living in a cell and all of a sudden something appears, a tiny crack in the wall that lets us see a tiny part of the real universe outside.
And so, spirituality awakens. We realise there’s something else and we want the truth. All of it!
Spirituality is first manifested as rebellion. We rebel against all false ideas, conditions and misconceptions of who we really are, against rules, society and everything that limits us and keeps us from awakening our awareness and expanding our consciousness. Then it becomes a quest, a constant search for truth and Self. We become spiritual seekers.
Spirituality is an internal battle, and the biggest fight is always against ourselves. Rebelling against imposed ideas, others and society is easy. But questioning yourself your ideas of truth, love and happiness is a whole different beast and it really hurts. Standing against yourself, the people you love and care for is not easy. You have to choose between the truth or being complacent. And either way it’s going to hurt. Because once you’ve had a little taste of the truth, even the littlest compromise will burn you from inside. Your blood will become molten rock as your heart screams at you, calling you a liar, a hypocrite. But even this is not as painful as living in the lie, locked inside that prison of ignorance and unawareness.
Now there is no other option; we have to break free. And thus, we become outcasts, misfits, hermits, the crazy ones. The others won’t like us. They will feel threatened as we stand against everything they are and they believe in, everything we were and we believed in. They will laugh at us, ridicule us, attack us and even criminalise us.
We travel far trying to find others like us, we walk unchartered territories drawing our own path and creating new realities, new ways of living. Not because we don’t want part of humanity, but because we know there’s nothing human about the current disconnected paradigm. We want humanity not society, community not nationality, spirituality, not religion.
And so we find our paths. Some of us connect with ancient spiritual traditions, some others find their spirit through art, expression, movement and creativity. The paths are as many as souls are there longing for truth. As spirituality is individual yet collective at the same time, through self knowledge and love we found collective growth and universal love, union, connection.
To me Ashtanga Yoga is the best weapon I have found to walk through this path of rebellion and everlasting seeking. The Ashtanga Yoga system is like a personalised map and guide book designed for this individual quest.
Abhyasa (daily, long term and committed practice) is like training or preparation for all the internal battles that must be fought as so as the external ones. Through Vairagya (non-attachment) we manage to stay calm as we see how difficult the path gets, how insignificant our efforts sometimes seem against the vastness of the system we are rebelling to and against the almost impossibility of success in our quest for truth.
Yet, we still rebel, yes we still fight and burn from inside, but through this practice we learn to stay still as we do, we learn to observe calmly and silently so we can understand the lessons that are being presented to us.
We find self love, courage and compassion.
And the quest continues…
Love and happiness,